I used to have my own place in the house, my fortress of solitude so to speak. I tell you I had wonderful times in the Man Cave, laughing, playing video games and just letting life melt away around me. Now, now it's what can be referred to as the "Boob and Baby Cave", who would have thought I would sacrifice my Orange and Brown homage to my hometown Browns? I mean yes the color is still the same, but it's not the same at the same time. It frequently is littered with burp clothes, nipple shields, Boppy, empty baby bottles and lanolin.
I'm happy though, there aren't any silent moments enjoying a sporting event anymore, nope the Man Cave is filled instead with the cries of "I want food" or "Don't you smell that?", the one sided conversations that turn into outlandish stories that I have made up(fully equipped with different voices of course) all with the intent of making Asher smile and making sure he is stimulated. Only five weeks old and this kid has me making a fool out of myself on a regular to ensure he is happy.
Everything in the Man Cave will be destroyed when he becomes mobile, my statue of Kratos, model car, Avenger bobble heads, mini helmets all will become funeral pyre for the man I used to be. I can't wait for those moments though.
The things I would sacrifice today, aren't the same as what I would have sacrificed 5 weeks ago. It seems like you develop a second heart when you finally have a child of your own, I still love my wife more than I did when we first met, more than when she said "Yes" and even more than I did this morning. Something has changed or my heart is larger than what I had ever imagined, my cup never seems to get full so I know it will never overflow, which means I will never have to forget a memory, take a side or cut someone out of my life for my love to continue to grow. They each have their home there, side-by-side holding hands in a place that few will never tread.
I would give up everything I own even my own life to make sure that he is provided for, will grow up an intelligent, kind and caring man and to make sure he knows his own level of self worth, because he was placed here for a reason. Yeah I would sacrifice it all in a heart beat to make sure he and Yaunna are always okay.
