I tried to sleep, got in the bed at midnight and was still up at 2:15am, just thinking and wondering, making sure my prayers were said and all bags were packed. The alarm goes off at 4:30am and my heart begins to race, thoughts are in disarray and stomach is doing the samba because of nerves.
I get the dog fed and let her outside, make sure Yaunna is up and in good spirits and remind her "this is what we have waited for, I love you more now than I did ten minutes ago and both you and Asher will be fine". I lay my hands on my wife's stomach and pray for her and Asher again, nothing can go wrong today, this is blessing and everything will be great.
We get to MUSC only to find out their computers are down and the admissions coordinator has to do everything by hand, Yaunna and I laugh it off because we knew everything couldn't have gone smoothly.
We walk towards the "E" elevator, resembling a pack animal, I have a bag for Yaunna, a bag for Asher, my carrier bag and admissions paperwork all tucked away on my 6'6" frame. We arrive at L&D and see so many smiling faces(there should be smiling faces since we know most of them by name after a week of false alarms). Yaunna is shown to her room and my heart starts to palpitate, this is getting more and more real by the minute.
She has to wait to be taken to the OR since someone came in the night before and her bag of waters had broken, we look at one another and laugh again. It's not a huge hurdle, just a pause in meeting our son. If we have waited 37wk 6days then another hour I'm sure we can handle.
They come in and give me the tiniest scrubs they could find so of course that provided a lot of laughter for Yaunna and I, especially since I start singing "Fat Guy in a Little Coat". Her parents arrive soon after, they are late but we all know who's fault that is....
They step into the room rolling 4 deep, looking like a blue scrubs mafia of sorts. Holy crap it's show time, they tell Yaunna about the spinal and my heart drops. She looks at me and gives me a nervous smile, I kiss her on the forehead and tell her she will do great, I will see her in a few and to not have Asher without me.
They wheel her away and the longest 15 minutes of my life follow, I'm pacing the floor of the room, clapping my hands and breathing heavy. My mind is racing because why would they take my wife away from me, she needs me to be there, I promised I would be there telling her how awesome she is. More time passes and Peachie looks at me to ask "What's wrong Bo?" I reply "the love of my life is going at something special alone, I need to see her" she decides to tell me that she is nervous as well. In that instance, I could care less how she felt because right now she isn't your daughter she is my wife, my love, the mother of our son, my light, my heart, she is everything to me.
They come back in the room to get me, I put on my mask and take the longest 20 yard walk of my life. They bring me into the OR and I see her, laying their with her teeth chattering, all I can muster is a smile and to tell her "Hey beautiful" she smiles in return and they start the process of brining Asher into the world.
I simply sit next to Yaunna's head, rubbing her forehead and telling her that she is doing a great job, they are working quickly and I tell her to ignore them and pay attention to me. 10:10am and the tech ask "Do I clock it now?" Doctor Fylstra replies "No we are just making the incision into the uterus". I smile at Yaunna and tell her she is great and Asher will be here in a moment. The moment of truth arrives 10:11am we both zone out cause we have to hear that first cry, that first breath and we know all is well, he lets out a giant yell and Yaunna cries, I kiss her and tell her "Great job mommy" the doctor holds him up and says "Here is your, well not so little baby boy"
It was all worth the wait, my little superhero is here. He can cry and wiggle and he just melted my heart. I don't even know him yet but I would sacrifice everything in the world for him. I'm no longer just LaTell son, brother, husband and friend, I now have the greatest title on earth FATHER.
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